Is love really all you need?

The truth...

I was in love oh- a few years ago now. I've never been the same since! It hit me like a mac truck, out of no where and I felt like I could not go on without him. Isn't that always what people say happens? It happened when I least expected it. It came out of no where. I was finally happy being single and then there he/she was! I guess that is just how it all happens!

That too is how it was for me. I was in deep deep love and I didn't want anything else except to be with this man for the rest of my days and he wanted that too! What happened? Where did it go sour? Where did it all end? He was into drugs and I was on the roller coaster with him for a while. I was willing to stick it out, I mean isn't that what a partner does? Support the one they love through rough times? At what cost though? I mean is love really enough? Is love really all you need?

It breaks my heart to ask such questions because, truthfully I want SO badly for that to be true, but don't really know if it is. I tried to do so many things for him... man I tried to give him it all I tried to give him the WORLD! All my family and ALL my friends were against us. They saw what it was doing to me and wanted me to leave. In fact no one wanted me to even get involved and couldn't believe I did. If one of my friends were to get involved with a person in the same situation as my love I would have done the exact same thing. I do not fault them for that at all. At the same time it hurt because I couldn't share the joys with them because they saw it all with jaded eyes.

I was with this man in Ontario and I left and have moved back home to Vancouver, where I have been for two years. I still think about him ALL THE TIME! How long does it take for a broken heart to heal? Does it ever really heal? I want to be in love again AND I want to be with him again. I know it wouldn't work with him but I come back to the question I asked before. Couldn't I just love him enough that it would all be ok? And I don't think it would be. I don't think love is always enough. And that... breaks my heart too.

Love and Respect